Friday, April 19, 2013

4/19/1995

April 19, 1995

I can’t believe it’s been 18 years since that beautiful spring morning that forever changed Oklahoma, and the world for that matter. I don’t think I fully understood how horribly tragic it was to lose the 168 that day and how difficult it would be for the nearly 700 injured to heal. I was only 13 years old and didn’t learn of the bombing until later in the afternoon. I can’t remember if we were told at school or if I saw it all when I arrived home, it’s officially been too long ago to recall all the details.

With the recent events in Boston, MA and West, TX I find myself thinking back to how my memory of April 19th would be completely different if my 7th grade self had a cell phone, the Internet, and Facebook. I would have known about the explosion just minutes after it happened, I’m sure. Is that better or worse? I really don’t know.

In just 9 short days I will be standing in a crowd of people to run the Oklahoma City Memorial Half Marathon. Next to me will be my Father, my Brother, and thousands of others with the dream of crossing the finish line. This race was my first half marathon just three years ago. I trained with a wonderful group of ladies, we took a road trip down I-44, and after surviving a night in the haunted Skirivin Hotel we stood at the starting line. Most competed in the relay while Rhonda and I embarked on our first half marathon. We ran past 168 banners with the names of each victim and when it hurts a little or you’re out of breath, you never forget that you run because you can. You run to remember.  

I personally didn’t know anyone was lost that day, but they were fellow Okies, fellow Americans, fellow human beings. Their lives were cut short by a heartless coward and it could have easily been me or someone I know.

As we were preparing to run a race in their memory one of the most prestigious marathons in the world was attacked. I’ve never been to Boston, I hope to visit later this year, but a part of me has dreamed of running that marathon. In that dream my family is waiting for me at the finish line to celebrate. How could someone think of taking that moment away from anyone?

I composed the above text last night with plans to finish the post today. This morning we turned on the TV to learn that one of the possible suspects was dead and the other was on the run. They are still searching for people in West, TX after the explosion. I was glued to the screen, what world do we live in? Is this even real?


Since this horrible day 18 years ago, Oklahoma City has risen and the Oklahoma Standard  showed it's self. We've made it through 9/11 ... NYC, DC, and PA showed that they too will not be defeated.
I have no doubt that the recently devastated cities will do just the same.


I was driving to work listening to more news on the radio and I just needed to escape for a few moments. I plugged in my iPhone and a song that I hadn’t listened to in a long time, probably years, came through the speakers. The Change by Garth Brooks. Maybe it was coincidence or maybe I was meant to hear the nearly 20 year old lyrics today.  

I run because I can, I run to remember, and I run because this world will not change me.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Updates, Thoughts, and Prayers for Boston

It’s been well over a month since my last post and the only excuse I have is ... Life.
No doubt that the past few weeks have really taken a toll on me and my little family, it’s been a tough for many reasons. In the interest of not making this a novel here are some of the highlights of the past 4 ish weeks for my blog readers (Hi Mama! Hi Dad!)
I have been able to keep up with my running schedule quite well actually. I have made it a major priority and I have only missed one run! Most of my miles have been logged on the gym treadmill, but last week the weather was amazing so I decided to do a mid week run in our neighborhood. The sidewalks aren’t very even...I’m being nice...they are horrible and the mass majority of people block a portion, if not all, of the sidewalk with their car. Anyway I injured my left calf in the process and I saw the entire OKC Half Marathon flash before my eyes. At the suggestion of a co-worker and a Facebook friend I purchased a Foam Roller and started stretching. I also increased my water intake and started eating two bananas a day. Fast-forward five days to me having the best 6 mile run of my life! All 6 miles were completed in less than 10 minutes, something that I have never done before. It was amazing to find my stride at a fast (for me) pace and keep it up for a decent distance. I can’t wait to run 13.1 with my Dad in less than two weeks! Brother will be there too, but he will probably leave us in the dust!

Weight Watchers has been dumped, officially. I informed them by cancelling my membership just last week. I lost a decent amount of weight in the beginning, but the 7 week plateau that followed was just too much. After speaking with a rep from the company I tried eating all of the points allotted to me (Flex and Activity) and I continued to not lose weight. I tried not eating any of the additional points and still did not lose weight. So, I feel that I gave it plenty of time and the smart thing to do was to try something different. Going forward I will be following the ole counting the calories method...so far I have lost 3 pounds.

Starting weight 2013 – 169.0
April 9, 2013 (WW breakup day)– 157.0 (12.0 total lost)
April 14, 2013 – 154.6 (14.4 total lost)

I’m feeling good on this plan and hope that it continues to work as I train for this half marathon, other in the future and my dream of a full marathon this fall!
We have been doing some cheap updates and cleaning up our apartment quite a bit and I really love all the changes. I want to get some more artwork up on the walls, but I do plan on doing a photo shoot to posts some picture of our home on the blog. Should be a fun little project in the coming weeks...or to be more realistic, months.

As I went to post this blog the news stories about the Boston Marathon bombings started to show up on social media and news outlets. I can’t imagine how scared all the runners, families and spectators are right now. Thoughts and prayers going out to all! I can’t imagine what would drive someone to do such a thing. The Boston Marathon is a race that I would love to run one day and I would have to work very hard to qualify. All of those participating deserve the medal they receive when they cross that finish line and the crowds of people that cheer them on, not this...not this at all.